how the dark intertwined with time

 how the dark intertwined with time

the sickness of day drinking it was the worst my thoughts slowly draining down the filthy sink in a blink no where to run 'till you fall to pieces looking for someone in sight till your eyes is shut down in dark, the pain is gushing out like red dawn. now I lay covered in dust now I lay covered in dust I'm just a pawn numb eyes, numb lips, numb body have become like a shackle that chains my thoughts. I am just a pawn, no knowledge of the players in every fight, we must be our next move and so every fall shall we be covered in dead webs, as we are thrust into the hands of weary cold winds no doubt, no reason, no thoughts, I fumble like a drunk man can't tell, I am not strong I am trailed by the eyes behind the curtains, I fall and cut to bleeds as the shard of guilt comes not to leave I'm just a pawn, numb body, the players have abandon us, like a stray dog I howl at night to grant me an unseen death I was born to lead I'll be there those were my mom's words, now it just rings without a sound even if it's for the sake of the lives of others I'll never forget the day I was never born no one's got a hand in your hand to hold on to you are so far away who are you? death or destiny I've been beaten down in every fight, I'm just a pawn