how the dark intertwined with time

 how the dark intertwined with time

the sickness of day drinking it was the worst my thoughts slowly draining down the filthy sink in a blink no where to run 'till you fall to pieces looking for someone in sight till your eyes is shut down in dark, the pain is gushing out like red dawn. now I lay covered in dust now I lay covered in dust I'm just a pawn numb eyes, numb lips, numb body have become like a shackle that chains my thoughts. I am just a pawn, no knowledge of the players in every fight, we must be our next move and so every fall shall we be covered in dead webs, as we are thrust into the hands of weary cold winds no doubt, no reason, no thoughts, I fumble like a drunk man can't tell, I am not strong I am trailed by the eyes behind the curtains, I fall and cut to bleeds as the shard of guilt comes not to leave I'm just a pawn, numb body, the players have abandon us, like a stray dog I howl at night to grant me an unseen death I was born to lead I'll be there those were my mom's words, now it just rings without a sound even if it's for the sake of the lives of others I'll never forget the day I was never born no one's got a hand in your hand to hold on to you are so far away who are you? death or destiny I've been beaten down in every fight, I'm just a pawn

I, A wrecked shore

Met have you many sailor in your harbour,
sometimes you might have many reason to know them more.
Some might have mapped your bay with their goods in exchange for some pay.
And some might have remained more than a day.
And some have come only to go without  anything to say.

Don't we all have regrets of some old acquaint,
But visited have thou, a wrecked shore,
And Unaware you became its light,
Became you afraid that your depart might bring them a hurtful sight, so you kept a close distant within a close ride.

Don't feel any bound, you have come to my land only to lead farther. And Bid I thee a farewell with a heartily sound.  T.r

You, a wrecked boat

'I  trust you', a big boulder that you threw, a reason to let you in and the beginning of your arrival in my inn.

Followed it by a light, turned out to be many asteroid, blinded by there sight.

And laid there my once towered now wrecked dam under your irresistibly ushered tide. You took me on your ride. I was lost. Saw I, there-there..a sailor with unwavering pride.

vulnerability became my addiction. didn't know, it would all turned out to be a scam, enchant I was by thee, an intelligent merchant. 

Became I mere victim of your curiosity and exploited was I in my own fortified city and you walked right on it unemotionaly with a plan. 

Half knew your seductive art and half my numbed heart. precision with time you threw many dart. 

your illusion of my identity on your palm and your curiosity worked together complementarily only to become an executioner of others morality.

 I too see the reason of their indifferent and their desire to put a long distant.

 No wonder about thy wrecked boat. It might have hundred gallon to go. but stolen and you a thief who took it from many life and unheard you ran. T.r

On the pier

Not a ripple, remains she still,
Stood on her, a moored idle boat.

It does rhythm with my time
Thirty years, a day and I still pay

A tide was rising, crowd and loud and in the midst,
stood there she, To whom had I not wanted to be.

Was stood here on this pier,
Pretended to be indifferent,
Though my heart sank at the thought of not having her near,
And sailed she away not to return.
Remained I on this pier,
Measuring the unmap distant  T.r

He

Who is he I think I know him,
He lives in my past.

What is it thou want,
Far away have I come, a place not to be ask,
Why thou stood aloof, traveller I,  a few days in thine roof,
Few loaf of bread and a bed for this body to spread and I would be thine man to any task.

What has betrayed thine to wander to leave thy shore and knock mine door,
Committed a sin in light, cursed I am by its plight and ran hither to a promising sight.

Heard I this, a man with this lore
Oh! Come have thou only to go,
Know must thou this door,
Come thou only to go.  T.r

He

I am hurt.
The character he has donned, he took it too high as if with it he was born. say I, it is a lie.

A friendship had I long and many times had I not consider it to be where I don't belong.

No right has he the way he act and his indifference to my react.

Solace you find in your solitude ride
Brush you off a natural tide and and sail thou in thine wrecked pride.

you are too hoked to a flaw heart,
Thine existence is pumped by its art.

Your crime bind by time is bound to give birth to an opponent rhyme.
   T.r

Rememberd forgotten good bye

Never forgot I, wished I to an Acquainted night
Gave it a purpose, a nascent light.
Remaind awaited below the sky --
of my  plight, pulled it I, a soring kite.

Never forgot I,
under the turf of  ignorance I brushed it off
Still towered I to a great height, not a soul to see its sight.

Never born to see a Dawn neither we heed like one
turned it I - to a song.
Never would I forget to where it had gone.
And For how long?

I

Murk

Ascend thou while she sinks,
Why dost you blur contour,  a lane that leads where I to be,
Where would you rather have me?
All slumber,  I thine only existence.

Thy,  a babbling Brook,
Winding uncertain nook.

Blind I, twig in thine robe
Where is your land, far- high, where does it lie.
Naked, striped off of fertility in thine hollowness.
Nostalgic feel I,  have I been here or born just yesterday.

slither thou like a snake,
Plucked I from my nest,
When have you gone so far, why I stood at this side of lake.

Your tender silence grinds my impatience.
You fade, fade you. sad I, why? who am I?
Is this where had we part,  leaving no trace in my heart.
Turned I, few step away where every thread tie to restart T.r

Regrets

Plucked